A very happy new year to all of you!
This year has the unlucky number in it, and from the looks of things it is going to be a hard one.
I don't mean to get your spirits down but there have been too many deaths, too much on the news that has been breaking my heart for the entire past week.
I don't want to re-iterate the news here.
But two people I know passed away together. She was old, frail and suffering. And her husband could not bear the thought of living without her. So he stopped eating and died a few days later.
A dear family friend has been detected with a bad kind of cancer.
And there is nothing I can do.
I don't want to become indifferent to grief.
Five to six years ago, when I was studying Literature in English as an elective in school, our teacher quoted this:
"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is
only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that
in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall."~ Kahlil Gibran
This has stayed. With me. And this year, I want to embrace sorrow, everything God has in store for me, with grace. I will surrender to the bigger scheme of things.
And yes, I will believe, have a little more faith in God.
May you find it in yourself to accept your losses and gains with fortitude this year.